It occurs to me that when God created the earth there was a whole load of movement and noise.
Can you hear the mountains tremble?
God is shifting people about. A lot of them seem to be Worship Leaders. I sense a pattern forming.
I think there could be a few more surprises, some radical changes as God stirs up the North Wales churches and then....
...a few aftershocks and it will all settle. Everyone will have to get used to the new arrangement, because it's going to be better for everyone.
I may have found my new church, hallelujah. No, I'm unlikely to find a regular WL position there, not yet anyway. The worship is fab and doesn't need me ruining it ( ;) ) - seriously though, they are moving in prophetic gifts and it's this gift that has been stirring my spirit lately as I believe God wants to develop it, shake it up, with plenty of movement and noise. Bring it on.
No, dear reader, I'm not going to become one of those bloggers who believe they're one of the last day witnesses or start preaching out of Revelation or Daniel. I'm talking about recognising God's pattern for the here and now.
There are three other churches that are close to my heart for different reasons, and I may visit them once in a while to get what I need from them, like we all need a little salt and sugar once in a while.
I finally feel ready.
Tuesday 29 January 2013
Sunday 20 January 2013
Just Another Boring Old Anglican
Yesterday, the worship was just perfect.
I was nervous at the beginning, and then realised that I hadn't prayed properly, and I knew how it can all go belly up if you don't send up some thanksgiving. I was used to the regular meetings, prayer time being scheduled in, it wasn't yesterday, and I had to quickly send some prayers up whilst the leader put in some intros.
Also not used to being first in the order of the day, so I thought, I'm just going to go for it. Let's aim for Pentecostal.
I stepped back from the mic a few times, let the (very small) cong take charge of the worship whilst I had a small dance myself, not ostentatious, not too undignified, for a verse and a chorus, and then took it back again and the gifts just flowed.
Wonderful. All worship should be that way. I wondered what it would have been like with the group, who I miss, and are getting along without me.
There are indications that I won't be doing this much longer, but after yesterday I can let go. To misquote Elbow, One day like that would see me right for life.
Because there are greater things than these waiting round the corner. There was further confirmation that there are things stirring in my heart that cannot be denied. Oh God give me the courage to see this through.
I was nervous at the beginning, and then realised that I hadn't prayed properly, and I knew how it can all go belly up if you don't send up some thanksgiving. I was used to the regular meetings, prayer time being scheduled in, it wasn't yesterday, and I had to quickly send some prayers up whilst the leader put in some intros.
Also not used to being first in the order of the day, so I thought, I'm just going to go for it. Let's aim for Pentecostal.
I stepped back from the mic a few times, let the (very small) cong take charge of the worship whilst I had a small dance myself, not ostentatious, not too undignified, for a verse and a chorus, and then took it back again and the gifts just flowed.
Wonderful. All worship should be that way. I wondered what it would have been like with the group, who I miss, and are getting along without me.
There are indications that I won't be doing this much longer, but after yesterday I can let go. To misquote Elbow, One day like that would see me right for life.
Because there are greater things than these waiting round the corner. There was further confirmation that there are things stirring in my heart that cannot be denied. Oh God give me the courage to see this through.
Sunday 13 January 2013
Drifting (again) or should that be a rolling stone?
Hebrews 10:25 was nagging me last night, so I guess that the Boss was trying to tell me something. I got the message, I need a good week.
And another new church.
The worship was fab. I had forgotten just how much I'd missed really good praise and worship, and singing Bless the Lord, 10,000 Reasons at one point, feeling the pentecostal spirit erupting in there, but...
...I had reservations about a few other things, which got me thinking about my future in the churches, and the ones I've been to recently.
In one, the preacher is brilliant, but the worship is scheduled in too much, rather than spontaneous. Another is friendly, small, but with power, but the worship is too restrained, and certain other things need reining in (it is a baby church, so these messes are cleared up in time). Another, the worship is free (a bit too free actually) the messages are powerful and stuff is happening....but controlled by a clique within the church and input is not encouraged from others.
If only all the good stuff was in one church building, because a lot of the issues that bother me I don't think I could live with for more than a few weeks.
Yes yes yes I know there is no such thing as a perfect church. I should go find one that I can be at least 80% happy...
Few people have taken me seriously with an idea I have though, that God doesn't want me to be in any one church building, that I can go round 5 or 6 churches on a sort of rota. From there I see the whole picture, where there's a prophecy in one fulfilled in another. (Actually I witnessed such this morning. And someone said to me how blessed they are by my worship in the outreach group. Y'see, God knew I needed to hear that.)
I am not forsaking the coming together. OK, a rolling stone gathereth no WL job, but as I said, this I sense is becoming secondary to my being.
I've never had the travel bug, but going round lots of different churches to see and hear what is happening...to a Christian....honestly...how exciting is that?
And another new church.
The worship was fab. I had forgotten just how much I'd missed really good praise and worship, and singing Bless the Lord, 10,000 Reasons at one point, feeling the pentecostal spirit erupting in there, but...
...I had reservations about a few other things, which got me thinking about my future in the churches, and the ones I've been to recently.
In one, the preacher is brilliant, but the worship is scheduled in too much, rather than spontaneous. Another is friendly, small, but with power, but the worship is too restrained, and certain other things need reining in (it is a baby church, so these messes are cleared up in time). Another, the worship is free (a bit too free actually) the messages are powerful and stuff is happening....but controlled by a clique within the church and input is not encouraged from others.
If only all the good stuff was in one church building, because a lot of the issues that bother me I don't think I could live with for more than a few weeks.
Yes yes yes I know there is no such thing as a perfect church. I should go find one that I can be at least 80% happy...
Few people have taken me seriously with an idea I have though, that God doesn't want me to be in any one church building, that I can go round 5 or 6 churches on a sort of rota. From there I see the whole picture, where there's a prophecy in one fulfilled in another. (Actually I witnessed such this morning. And someone said to me how blessed they are by my worship in the outreach group. Y'see, God knew I needed to hear that.)
I am not forsaking the coming together. OK, a rolling stone gathereth no WL job, but as I said, this I sense is becoming secondary to my being.
I've never had the travel bug, but going round lots of different churches to see and hear what is happening...to a Christian....honestly...how exciting is that?
Friday 11 January 2013
Drifting
Yes, I've backed off the last couple of weeks.
Actually, I've backed off a little too much I think, and started doing stuff which is....well not sinful exactly, just somewhat unworthy of me - or should that be worthy of my own self, but not for my Creator?
Whatever - I'm losing it, and I know why this is, I'm not getting regular fellowship with other Christians.
But even that is a wretched excuse. I don't work for a Christian organisation, but it is one that is fair, balanced and respectful (yes, that is a rarity) so it isn't as if work has corrupted me, although I have been very very busy.
I will be seeing a friend on Monday, and it could be the last time I see them in a good few months. This makes me somewhat melancholic...There's email, there's phone calls, but there's nothing like face to face...
...face to face..I can only imagine...
I need to prepare for a worship session next week, and I'm halfway there, but....something is happening in my heart, worship leading is going to become secondary in my relationship with God. Yes, I know that it won't be, never could be, either/or, but there are indications that He doesn't see it as the most important activity He wants me for. And I sense certain tasks are coming to a conclusion, by which time I will, and must, let go.
Actually, I've backed off a little too much I think, and started doing stuff which is....well not sinful exactly, just somewhat unworthy of me - or should that be worthy of my own self, but not for my Creator?
Whatever - I'm losing it, and I know why this is, I'm not getting regular fellowship with other Christians.
But even that is a wretched excuse. I don't work for a Christian organisation, but it is one that is fair, balanced and respectful (yes, that is a rarity) so it isn't as if work has corrupted me, although I have been very very busy.
I will be seeing a friend on Monday, and it could be the last time I see them in a good few months. This makes me somewhat melancholic...There's email, there's phone calls, but there's nothing like face to face...
...face to face..I can only imagine...
I need to prepare for a worship session next week, and I'm halfway there, but....something is happening in my heart, worship leading is going to become secondary in my relationship with God. Yes, I know that it won't be, never could be, either/or, but there are indications that He doesn't see it as the most important activity He wants me for. And I sense certain tasks are coming to a conclusion, by which time I will, and must, let go.
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