Yes, been a while.
Well, the fact is, the blog is meant to be about worship leading, and I haven't been leading worship for a good two months. It's a chapter in my life that I thought may come to an end.
Yeah, yeah, once a worship leader etc, once God has a purpose planned for you etc etc.
But I recently found you don't have to be at the front of the church to lead worship...
Today, though, I have popped in to say that another chapter may be opening as something intriguing happened yesterday.
I guess I now have to exercise patience.
Monday 9 September 2013
Friday 12 July 2013
Funny ol' turn of events
I've been asked to lead worship for a branch of the outreach I already lead worship for.
I don't know anyone at this place which is 30 miles away.
It got me to thinking that God still has a hand, and there's a reason for this interesting turn, caused again by the death of someone else.
Co-incidence? No. God-incidence. Gotta do this just so I see what happens next.
I don't know anyone at this place which is 30 miles away.
It got me to thinking that God still has a hand, and there's a reason for this interesting turn, caused again by the death of someone else.
Co-incidence? No. God-incidence. Gotta do this just so I see what happens next.
Sunday 23 June 2013
...let me give you an example...
This is based on a viral that is going round social media, I can't remember it precisely, but this will do...
1 + 1 = 3
2 + 2 = 6
3 + 3 = 9
5 + 5 = ?
You may answer 15. I did first time as well.
Actually, the answer is 10.
If you see a bundle of incorrect statements, there is no reason to follow the logic into another conclusion. 5 plus 5 is still 10, even if others say it isn't.
You see?
1 + 1 = 3
2 + 2 = 6
3 + 3 = 9
5 + 5 = ?
You may answer 15. I did first time as well.
Actually, the answer is 10.
If you see a bundle of incorrect statements, there is no reason to follow the logic into another conclusion. 5 plus 5 is still 10, even if others say it isn't.
You see?
Thursday 20 June 2013
Concerned from Conwy
Sometimes I think I could fall foul of some Description Act, as I am not so much a Worship Leader lately, as someone who occasionally picks up a guitar and belts out a couple, once in a while.
Well - I suppose, once a WL, always a WL. Feeling philosophical, rather than unduly worried about the path. For I walk by faith, not by sight.
Anyway, I have made a rare appearance here to state a concern of mine.
New Age. Cue screams.
It is infecting many churches, and the odd Christian acquaintance. What is worrying is that they don't realise.
New Age is a poison. Unfortunately it tastes nice. It is the fruit that Satan says looks and taste good and "Ye shall not surely die".
I would that they could hear themselves when they talk about "re-alignment" and "inner being" and "embracing" various doctrines which sound good but always make my mind go off on a tangent.
The Gospel, the Good News, is simple. Coming to Christ is an easy prayer of faith, which if you say and mean (and the prayer itself does not need to be complicated - "Help!" will do) will change your life. Thereafter, you do not need to feel some sort of deep spirituality.
It's quite simple. Live by faith. Trust Him. He'll see you right.
Trouble is, we like to overcomplicate because it surely can't be that easy.
Buster - I find those simple statements difficult enough. Don't make it harder.
This musing might have significance later.
Well - I suppose, once a WL, always a WL. Feeling philosophical, rather than unduly worried about the path. For I walk by faith, not by sight.
Anyway, I have made a rare appearance here to state a concern of mine.
New Age. Cue screams.
It is infecting many churches, and the odd Christian acquaintance. What is worrying is that they don't realise.
New Age is a poison. Unfortunately it tastes nice. It is the fruit that Satan says looks and taste good and "Ye shall not surely die".
I would that they could hear themselves when they talk about "re-alignment" and "inner being" and "embracing" various doctrines which sound good but always make my mind go off on a tangent.
The Gospel, the Good News, is simple. Coming to Christ is an easy prayer of faith, which if you say and mean (and the prayer itself does not need to be complicated - "Help!" will do) will change your life. Thereafter, you do not need to feel some sort of deep spirituality.
It's quite simple. Live by faith. Trust Him. He'll see you right.
Trouble is, we like to overcomplicate because it surely can't be that easy.
Buster - I find those simple statements difficult enough. Don't make it harder.
This musing might have significance later.
Wednesday 8 May 2013
10,000 Reasons
I read somewhere that the average person meets 10,000 people in their lifetime - presumably these are individuals with whom we interact in some way - more than a glance and/or a smile, but exchange a handshake or even a few words at least.
How many of those 10,000 influence the way we are, that have shaped our way of thinking, or even quote or talk about, years later?
Out of curiosity today, I went looking for one of those influences - and found that the Lord had taken him earlier this year.
He was an old man, in his nineties at least, and I am somewhat sorry that the last convo I had with him was shortly before his wife died over 10 years ago. But I still talk about him, because he changed the way I thought about deliverance and miracles. No longer can I say "he's still going, as far as I know" because He has decided that he deserves some meandGod time now, until the final day.
I may cry later, as I consider the 18 months where he held the most influence. But, if it weren't for him, I probably would be a completely different person.
Another one of the 10,000 reasons to thank Him for putting the right person in your life at the right time.
How many of those 10,000 influence the way we are, that have shaped our way of thinking, or even quote or talk about, years later?
Out of curiosity today, I went looking for one of those influences - and found that the Lord had taken him earlier this year.
He was an old man, in his nineties at least, and I am somewhat sorry that the last convo I had with him was shortly before his wife died over 10 years ago. But I still talk about him, because he changed the way I thought about deliverance and miracles. No longer can I say "he's still going, as far as I know" because He has decided that he deserves some meandGod time now, until the final day.
I may cry later, as I consider the 18 months where he held the most influence. But, if it weren't for him, I probably would be a completely different person.
Another one of the 10,000 reasons to thank Him for putting the right person in your life at the right time.
Monday 22 April 2013
Finding God
Interesting, nay, exciting things going on in Wales (well, Cwmbran at least)
Love reading about where He is seriously outpouring blessings to those willing to receive them.
The regular reader will know I'm a bit of a Jeremiah, and can sense a "but" coming on.
Yes...
...but... (now you can't say I don't disappoint)
Some of the leaders around my area are going down to Cwmbran over the next week to experience and see for themselves what is going on. Must admit, if I were a leader too, I may consider it my duty to check out how a church is doing better than ours. But to "experience" what is going on? I hope not - but I feel that too many may be going with false expectations, that they will be filled to the brim with the Holy Spirit, and we'll all need shades to look at them when they come back. The very best they can hope for is a reunion of the leaders around Wales - and this, my friends, is the beginning of unity and you know how I love to bang on about that. I hope they get their socks blessed off. I hope they witness healing and deliverance in abundant measure. But is it all going to happen in Cwmbran?
Those that realise, well, actually, we can seek God's presence wherever and whenever they go then start dreaming about how revival can start in the very church they attend (or lead). Or, in fact, revival will start where they are. And this is a worrying trend. In social media, you get these "attend my church" notices, because "there are exciting things going on" - admirable, really...but what about the others? Even in Cwmbran, there's a group saying "well, actually, revival didn't start there it started here..and in fact you can trace it back as far as here..." - makes you despair.
Is it not enough that lame are walking, deaf are hearing, blind are seeing, the bound are being set free? Does it matter where revival is and do you have to go to Cwmbran to find it?
I got to thinking that a lot of people in the Bible who went off to find God, e.g. Moses, Elijah, Jesus, actually went into the wilderness - the most barren and unlikely place you can think of - and found Him. Makes you think about those that go to the wildest gatherings, because something is "happening" they have to be there, forgetting we have a personal Christ too.
Someone once said to me, that whenever revival starts, someone, somewhere tries to control it and it is taken out of God's hands. If God isn't in control, revival comes to a grinding halt.
And it definitely can't be done if the church aren't united with a single Holy, God-given purpose, regardless of location and logistics.
Love reading about where He is seriously outpouring blessings to those willing to receive them.
The regular reader will know I'm a bit of a Jeremiah, and can sense a "but" coming on.
Yes...
...but... (now you can't say I don't disappoint)
Some of the leaders around my area are going down to Cwmbran over the next week to experience and see for themselves what is going on. Must admit, if I were a leader too, I may consider it my duty to check out how a church is doing better than ours. But to "experience" what is going on? I hope not - but I feel that too many may be going with false expectations, that they will be filled to the brim with the Holy Spirit, and we'll all need shades to look at them when they come back. The very best they can hope for is a reunion of the leaders around Wales - and this, my friends, is the beginning of unity and you know how I love to bang on about that. I hope they get their socks blessed off. I hope they witness healing and deliverance in abundant measure. But is it all going to happen in Cwmbran?
Those that realise, well, actually, we can seek God's presence wherever and whenever they go then start dreaming about how revival can start in the very church they attend (or lead). Or, in fact, revival will start where they are. And this is a worrying trend. In social media, you get these "attend my church" notices, because "there are exciting things going on" - admirable, really...but what about the others? Even in Cwmbran, there's a group saying "well, actually, revival didn't start there it started here..and in fact you can trace it back as far as here..." - makes you despair.
Is it not enough that lame are walking, deaf are hearing, blind are seeing, the bound are being set free? Does it matter where revival is and do you have to go to Cwmbran to find it?
I got to thinking that a lot of people in the Bible who went off to find God, e.g. Moses, Elijah, Jesus, actually went into the wilderness - the most barren and unlikely place you can think of - and found Him. Makes you think about those that go to the wildest gatherings, because something is "happening" they have to be there, forgetting we have a personal Christ too.
Someone once said to me, that whenever revival starts, someone, somewhere tries to control it and it is taken out of God's hands. If God isn't in control, revival comes to a grinding halt.
And it definitely can't be done if the church aren't united with a single Holy, God-given purpose, regardless of location and logistics.
Monday 15 April 2013
And the new number 1 is....
Yesterday, I came across a list proclaiming to be the "101 Greatest Christian Songs". Now, I lost faith with music charts a long time ago, they stopped being a proper representation of taste fairly early on. All the same, I do like looking at them, because very often they give me inspiration for the "next big thing" within whatever group or church I happen to be leading in.
I should have guessed before I clicked on the link I would run into trouble, exclamations of "Who?" and "What?" and "Never heard of it!" emitted from my lips. Then I saw that this was one person's opinion, and I suspect he is less than 25 years old. I don't think there was anything on there older than 10 years, maybe even 5 years. In a homage to pastures old, it did have "How Great Thou Art", but I suspect that was only on there because of Chris Tomilin's "The Splendour of the King". 10,000 Reasons was on there, but way way behind One Thing Remains which was in the top 10. Now, about the latter. Great chorus. Love singing it, despite some WL penchant of playing it too darn high. But...think about it...in 10 years time will it still have the appeal, or will it have gone down the hole that Be Bold, Be Strong was consigned to 20 years ago? Or will we be finding ten thousand reasons?
Call me fuddy duddy and completely outta touch but I believe I'm right that a lot of this guy's chart will have lost its "fashion" and...erm...one thing will remain. He is young, but he will learn. Church congregations love to learn new songs. But moreso they love beautiful tunes, and simple words packed with power. These are the greatest Christian songs of all time, no matter how much one particular chorus has meant to you. I love newbies such as My Heart is Restless and God Only Wise. I will not give them a kiss of death and say they will end up great. They stir my soul. They may not mass stir souls to greatness.
Why do you think In Christ Alone and Be Still are still the most played and sung in churches? Neither of those were in his chart, but those two mean so much to so many people and have influenced Christian song writing. In Christ Alone seems to be requested at hatches, matches and despatches everywhere as it is inter-denominational.
Great is what touches, and can change hearts.
I should have guessed before I clicked on the link I would run into trouble, exclamations of "Who?" and "What?" and "Never heard of it!" emitted from my lips. Then I saw that this was one person's opinion, and I suspect he is less than 25 years old. I don't think there was anything on there older than 10 years, maybe even 5 years. In a homage to pastures old, it did have "How Great Thou Art", but I suspect that was only on there because of Chris Tomilin's "The Splendour of the King". 10,000 Reasons was on there, but way way behind One Thing Remains which was in the top 10. Now, about the latter. Great chorus. Love singing it, despite some WL penchant of playing it too darn high. But...think about it...in 10 years time will it still have the appeal, or will it have gone down the hole that Be Bold, Be Strong was consigned to 20 years ago? Or will we be finding ten thousand reasons?
Call me fuddy duddy and completely outta touch but I believe I'm right that a lot of this guy's chart will have lost its "fashion" and...erm...one thing will remain. He is young, but he will learn. Church congregations love to learn new songs. But moreso they love beautiful tunes, and simple words packed with power. These are the greatest Christian songs of all time, no matter how much one particular chorus has meant to you. I love newbies such as My Heart is Restless and God Only Wise. I will not give them a kiss of death and say they will end up great. They stir my soul. They may not mass stir souls to greatness.
Why do you think In Christ Alone and Be Still are still the most played and sung in churches? Neither of those were in his chart, but those two mean so much to so many people and have influenced Christian song writing. In Christ Alone seems to be requested at hatches, matches and despatches everywhere as it is inter-denominational.
Great is what touches, and can change hearts.
Tuesday 5 March 2013
Green pastures
Well it's been over a month since I posted here. Life gets away from me sometimes, and I got to thinking the other day, 2 months gone and has anything happened at all for me this year?
Well, actually, a lot has happened. But it's mostly been work within my heart rather than physical events. Though there has been a few of those also. Like, finding a new church. Finding a new friend within that church. Starting to move in evangelical worship. (who'd have thought, an Anglican Pentecostal like me?) My friend, nearly clear of cancer, praise God for His healing power. Passing anniversaries, some joyful, some I find difficult to ponder on without tears. There are a lot of anniversaries for me at this time of year. Planning a trip to London. Looking forward to trips in June that are work related. Personal health scares are over. And although it is still cold here, watching spring develop and the evenings get longer.
Mostly though, God is changing my attitude in a few things - and giving me strong convictions in others. Several subjects will get me off on a rant I would probably be unable to stop. Unity. Revival. Denominations. Community work and the church. Issues that schism the church such as gay marriage and women bishops.
Some may call me two faced with some of the opinions, which I really don't want to go into (I could write me a book). But I don't really matter. I am just one voice amongst thousands. What matters is - just where is the church going, and why aren't those responsible guiding the vehicle just a little more surely, with purpose and clear directives? And when they do have a clear directive, or a programme that works, why aren't they sharing and/or voicing their successes and failures to help others move on?
Outreach this week. I have a feeling that at the end of the summer that task will be no more. I'm OK with this though I think. I could let go when God requires it, because He will replace it with something else. Something different. Something special. Something awesome.
Well, actually, a lot has happened. But it's mostly been work within my heart rather than physical events. Though there has been a few of those also. Like, finding a new church. Finding a new friend within that church. Starting to move in evangelical worship. (who'd have thought, an Anglican Pentecostal like me?) My friend, nearly clear of cancer, praise God for His healing power. Passing anniversaries, some joyful, some I find difficult to ponder on without tears. There are a lot of anniversaries for me at this time of year. Planning a trip to London. Looking forward to trips in June that are work related. Personal health scares are over. And although it is still cold here, watching spring develop and the evenings get longer.
Mostly though, God is changing my attitude in a few things - and giving me strong convictions in others. Several subjects will get me off on a rant I would probably be unable to stop. Unity. Revival. Denominations. Community work and the church. Issues that schism the church such as gay marriage and women bishops.
Some may call me two faced with some of the opinions, which I really don't want to go into (I could write me a book). But I don't really matter. I am just one voice amongst thousands. What matters is - just where is the church going, and why aren't those responsible guiding the vehicle just a little more surely, with purpose and clear directives? And when they do have a clear directive, or a programme that works, why aren't they sharing and/or voicing their successes and failures to help others move on?
Outreach this week. I have a feeling that at the end of the summer that task will be no more. I'm OK with this though I think. I could let go when God requires it, because He will replace it with something else. Something different. Something special. Something awesome.
Monday 4 February 2013
Psalm 1
Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord and in his law doth he meditate day and night. And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and
whatsoever he doeth shall prosper. The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away. Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.For the Lord knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish. (KJV 1611)
Psalm 1 sets the scene for a wonderful book of poetry, it's a statement of faith.
And I have made a statement of faith, I have now told several people about the "new" church, although I was still not certain, now I am sure - and speaking it out adds power to the words. I want to put down roots. I need to put down roots. It was frivolous to think I could flit about for months.
I went to an evening service - first in ages - to hear a friend speak, in a church I'd been to before but morning only, and - as bittersweet as this is - the format of the service confirmed to me that the church that had been recommended to me, was not for me. I wanted the place that I was starting to call home, despite its foibles.
And of course there's a bit of joy stealing going on, it's almost a given with me nowadays. Still, I have found a quote to add to the list of favourites.
"My main ambition in life is to be on the devil's most wanted list." - Leonard Ravenhill
Puts me in mind of Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. I wanna be an outlaw.
Psalm 1 sets the scene for a wonderful book of poetry, it's a statement of faith.
And I have made a statement of faith, I have now told several people about the "new" church, although I was still not certain, now I am sure - and speaking it out adds power to the words. I want to put down roots. I need to put down roots. It was frivolous to think I could flit about for months.
I went to an evening service - first in ages - to hear a friend speak, in a church I'd been to before but morning only, and - as bittersweet as this is - the format of the service confirmed to me that the church that had been recommended to me, was not for me. I wanted the place that I was starting to call home, despite its foibles.
And of course there's a bit of joy stealing going on, it's almost a given with me nowadays. Still, I have found a quote to add to the list of favourites.
"My main ambition in life is to be on the devil's most wanted list." - Leonard Ravenhill
Puts me in mind of Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. I wanna be an outlaw.
Tuesday 29 January 2013
Repositioning
It occurs to me that when God created the earth there was a whole load of movement and noise.
Can you hear the mountains tremble?
God is shifting people about. A lot of them seem to be Worship Leaders. I sense a pattern forming.
I think there could be a few more surprises, some radical changes as God stirs up the North Wales churches and then....
...a few aftershocks and it will all settle. Everyone will have to get used to the new arrangement, because it's going to be better for everyone.
I may have found my new church, hallelujah. No, I'm unlikely to find a regular WL position there, not yet anyway. The worship is fab and doesn't need me ruining it ( ;) ) - seriously though, they are moving in prophetic gifts and it's this gift that has been stirring my spirit lately as I believe God wants to develop it, shake it up, with plenty of movement and noise. Bring it on.
No, dear reader, I'm not going to become one of those bloggers who believe they're one of the last day witnesses or start preaching out of Revelation or Daniel. I'm talking about recognising God's pattern for the here and now.
There are three other churches that are close to my heart for different reasons, and I may visit them once in a while to get what I need from them, like we all need a little salt and sugar once in a while.
I finally feel ready.
Can you hear the mountains tremble?
God is shifting people about. A lot of them seem to be Worship Leaders. I sense a pattern forming.
I think there could be a few more surprises, some radical changes as God stirs up the North Wales churches and then....
...a few aftershocks and it will all settle. Everyone will have to get used to the new arrangement, because it's going to be better for everyone.
I may have found my new church, hallelujah. No, I'm unlikely to find a regular WL position there, not yet anyway. The worship is fab and doesn't need me ruining it ( ;) ) - seriously though, they are moving in prophetic gifts and it's this gift that has been stirring my spirit lately as I believe God wants to develop it, shake it up, with plenty of movement and noise. Bring it on.
No, dear reader, I'm not going to become one of those bloggers who believe they're one of the last day witnesses or start preaching out of Revelation or Daniel. I'm talking about recognising God's pattern for the here and now.
There are three other churches that are close to my heart for different reasons, and I may visit them once in a while to get what I need from them, like we all need a little salt and sugar once in a while.
I finally feel ready.
Sunday 20 January 2013
Just Another Boring Old Anglican
Yesterday, the worship was just perfect.
I was nervous at the beginning, and then realised that I hadn't prayed properly, and I knew how it can all go belly up if you don't send up some thanksgiving. I was used to the regular meetings, prayer time being scheduled in, it wasn't yesterday, and I had to quickly send some prayers up whilst the leader put in some intros.
Also not used to being first in the order of the day, so I thought, I'm just going to go for it. Let's aim for Pentecostal.
I stepped back from the mic a few times, let the (very small) cong take charge of the worship whilst I had a small dance myself, not ostentatious, not too undignified, for a verse and a chorus, and then took it back again and the gifts just flowed.
Wonderful. All worship should be that way. I wondered what it would have been like with the group, who I miss, and are getting along without me.
There are indications that I won't be doing this much longer, but after yesterday I can let go. To misquote Elbow, One day like that would see me right for life.
Because there are greater things than these waiting round the corner. There was further confirmation that there are things stirring in my heart that cannot be denied. Oh God give me the courage to see this through.
I was nervous at the beginning, and then realised that I hadn't prayed properly, and I knew how it can all go belly up if you don't send up some thanksgiving. I was used to the regular meetings, prayer time being scheduled in, it wasn't yesterday, and I had to quickly send some prayers up whilst the leader put in some intros.
Also not used to being first in the order of the day, so I thought, I'm just going to go for it. Let's aim for Pentecostal.
I stepped back from the mic a few times, let the (very small) cong take charge of the worship whilst I had a small dance myself, not ostentatious, not too undignified, for a verse and a chorus, and then took it back again and the gifts just flowed.
Wonderful. All worship should be that way. I wondered what it would have been like with the group, who I miss, and are getting along without me.
There are indications that I won't be doing this much longer, but after yesterday I can let go. To misquote Elbow, One day like that would see me right for life.
Because there are greater things than these waiting round the corner. There was further confirmation that there are things stirring in my heart that cannot be denied. Oh God give me the courage to see this through.
Sunday 13 January 2013
Drifting (again) or should that be a rolling stone?
Hebrews 10:25 was nagging me last night, so I guess that the Boss was trying to tell me something. I got the message, I need a good week.
And another new church.
The worship was fab. I had forgotten just how much I'd missed really good praise and worship, and singing Bless the Lord, 10,000 Reasons at one point, feeling the pentecostal spirit erupting in there, but...
...I had reservations about a few other things, which got me thinking about my future in the churches, and the ones I've been to recently.
In one, the preacher is brilliant, but the worship is scheduled in too much, rather than spontaneous. Another is friendly, small, but with power, but the worship is too restrained, and certain other things need reining in (it is a baby church, so these messes are cleared up in time). Another, the worship is free (a bit too free actually) the messages are powerful and stuff is happening....but controlled by a clique within the church and input is not encouraged from others.
If only all the good stuff was in one church building, because a lot of the issues that bother me I don't think I could live with for more than a few weeks.
Yes yes yes I know there is no such thing as a perfect church. I should go find one that I can be at least 80% happy...
Few people have taken me seriously with an idea I have though, that God doesn't want me to be in any one church building, that I can go round 5 or 6 churches on a sort of rota. From there I see the whole picture, where there's a prophecy in one fulfilled in another. (Actually I witnessed such this morning. And someone said to me how blessed they are by my worship in the outreach group. Y'see, God knew I needed to hear that.)
I am not forsaking the coming together. OK, a rolling stone gathereth no WL job, but as I said, this I sense is becoming secondary to my being.
I've never had the travel bug, but going round lots of different churches to see and hear what is happening...to a Christian....honestly...how exciting is that?
And another new church.
The worship was fab. I had forgotten just how much I'd missed really good praise and worship, and singing Bless the Lord, 10,000 Reasons at one point, feeling the pentecostal spirit erupting in there, but...
...I had reservations about a few other things, which got me thinking about my future in the churches, and the ones I've been to recently.
In one, the preacher is brilliant, but the worship is scheduled in too much, rather than spontaneous. Another is friendly, small, but with power, but the worship is too restrained, and certain other things need reining in (it is a baby church, so these messes are cleared up in time). Another, the worship is free (a bit too free actually) the messages are powerful and stuff is happening....but controlled by a clique within the church and input is not encouraged from others.
If only all the good stuff was in one church building, because a lot of the issues that bother me I don't think I could live with for more than a few weeks.
Yes yes yes I know there is no such thing as a perfect church. I should go find one that I can be at least 80% happy...
Few people have taken me seriously with an idea I have though, that God doesn't want me to be in any one church building, that I can go round 5 or 6 churches on a sort of rota. From there I see the whole picture, where there's a prophecy in one fulfilled in another. (Actually I witnessed such this morning. And someone said to me how blessed they are by my worship in the outreach group. Y'see, God knew I needed to hear that.)
I am not forsaking the coming together. OK, a rolling stone gathereth no WL job, but as I said, this I sense is becoming secondary to my being.
I've never had the travel bug, but going round lots of different churches to see and hear what is happening...to a Christian....honestly...how exciting is that?
Friday 11 January 2013
Drifting
Yes, I've backed off the last couple of weeks.
Actually, I've backed off a little too much I think, and started doing stuff which is....well not sinful exactly, just somewhat unworthy of me - or should that be worthy of my own self, but not for my Creator?
Whatever - I'm losing it, and I know why this is, I'm not getting regular fellowship with other Christians.
But even that is a wretched excuse. I don't work for a Christian organisation, but it is one that is fair, balanced and respectful (yes, that is a rarity) so it isn't as if work has corrupted me, although I have been very very busy.
I will be seeing a friend on Monday, and it could be the last time I see them in a good few months. This makes me somewhat melancholic...There's email, there's phone calls, but there's nothing like face to face...
...face to face..I can only imagine...
I need to prepare for a worship session next week, and I'm halfway there, but....something is happening in my heart, worship leading is going to become secondary in my relationship with God. Yes, I know that it won't be, never could be, either/or, but there are indications that He doesn't see it as the most important activity He wants me for. And I sense certain tasks are coming to a conclusion, by which time I will, and must, let go.
Actually, I've backed off a little too much I think, and started doing stuff which is....well not sinful exactly, just somewhat unworthy of me - or should that be worthy of my own self, but not for my Creator?
Whatever - I'm losing it, and I know why this is, I'm not getting regular fellowship with other Christians.
But even that is a wretched excuse. I don't work for a Christian organisation, but it is one that is fair, balanced and respectful (yes, that is a rarity) so it isn't as if work has corrupted me, although I have been very very busy.
I will be seeing a friend on Monday, and it could be the last time I see them in a good few months. This makes me somewhat melancholic...There's email, there's phone calls, but there's nothing like face to face...
...face to face..I can only imagine...
I need to prepare for a worship session next week, and I'm halfway there, but....something is happening in my heart, worship leading is going to become secondary in my relationship with God. Yes, I know that it won't be, never could be, either/or, but there are indications that He doesn't see it as the most important activity He wants me for. And I sense certain tasks are coming to a conclusion, by which time I will, and must, let go.
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