One better day

Worship this morning

Jesus, We Celebrate Your Victory
Fill Your Hearts with Joy
Wonderful Grace
Purify My Heart
You Have Been So Good

Ever the eagle-eyed (although I'm not good at hiding my feelings), Bossman homed in on me today and asked how I was, I said spiritually I was a bit rough.  I didn't go into too many details, but I think he could guess.

I'm really not ready to discuss it all.

But...today was a better day.  It wasn't particularly special.  I didn't feel especially "zapped" or annointed...just...calm.  It puts me in mind of my "hurricane" theory of last year; the eye of the storm is always the quietest.

With the encounter yesterday, a bible reading last night out of Psalm 77 and a general feeling that I have to prioritise and put Him at the top of the list, I feel a mixture of peace and anticipation, with a pinch of God fear, a sprinkling of mortal fear and a quite liberal amount of chastisement.

This has left me a bit confused - but I least I know I am confused, rather than just a teensy bit insane.

Or maybe I'm that too.   After all, one of the roots of Hallelujah, Haw-lal, also means "foolishness".

Am I to carry on and be a fool for God?  Time will tell.