I really didn't want to go to the church I went to a couple of weeks ago. There's something missing...
All the same, an "impetus" got me out of the front door yesterday, despite rain, wind and cold. If asked, I guessed I would have said I would have felt guilty all week had I not gone somewhere. Fear of God does that to you.
I ended up in a church that was very small indeed, there were 8 of us there in total. But God is God. There was a link with one of the members. She thought she had missed the monthly outreach, and oh yes, her friend would like to come to, and maybe a few others...
Two, maybe more, people who will be coming to the outreach, who wouldn't have come if I had notturned up in their church that morning. God was so in that detail. And it was a Spirit driving me out in the inclement weather.
Have I found the church I need? Well, I still don't know. The message was good (and very apt for me, well a good reminder, about moving mountains) They need a worship leader (there's a surprise!) but is it the place for me? My attitude is very strange - you would think I would be saying - worship leading??!! When do I start??!! But no...
I was thinking about it later, after a conversation with the outreach leader, that the regular WL is still very much Out Of Action and will be for some time. It saddened me, but I thought, I can't do church and the outreach, it nearly killed me in the summer.
Remember the butterfly?
I shall be a butterfly. I will flit about from church to church. I know where I'm going next week, and I have plans for the following couple of weeks to Christmas. God has somewhere for me I'm thinking, but as long as I get fellowship, and the gospel, that is my food for the week and I will be happy.
The WL will come later. After healing. After prayer. Maybe God has something even more special.
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