Worship this morning:
Rejoice!
Take us to the River
Your Love shining like the sun (Pour over me)
Jesus You are changing me
There were 5 originally scheduled, but the Spirit led it all differently this morning. Further news of improvement in the health of my Brother in Christ, which nearly had me in tears before worship began.
Still there is a raincloud. Still there is something that needs serious sorting. I'm not sure where it's going to turn, but I need to take the advice that's been given - Give. It. To. Him. Quit wrestling with it.
I nearly posted something on Friday or Saturday about something that happened Thursday, but I realised that it was going to be a girliepitypartyrant, unhelpful and not exactly objective. And very confusing to the casual reader. And probably to me some months down the line. Needless to say, similar has happened before. From the same person. And it's been going on for months. Bringing me down. Making me doubt my future.
I complained that the night has been long. I've been told to be faithful until dawn. Here's some honesty - I don't know whether I can or if I am being faithful to the right calling. It could all be taken out of my hands anyway. Don't get me wrong - I do not doubt what I've been called to be - I doubt where I've been called. But it was good to talk to someone today who truly understands my position. Oh how God knew that they had to be there the first time I poured out my heart on these matters. How could we have possibly imagined it would be under these circumstances.
And this is confusing to the casual leader. Sorry about that. But I have to lay it somewhere, why not here?
Hi Fiona... not at all confusing to this casual reader. I obviously have no idea what you're talking about, but I have been part of many conversations in a similar vein. Something about prayer and perseverance to keep standing comes to mind. ie Eph 6:16, also fiery darts and faith. I've found that patience as God begins to prepare us for change is a challenge. If, and as an outsider I have to say a big if, the Lord is calling you to change he will make it easy to let go of the old as your heart is filled with the new. Timing is everything. I like the potter's wheel imagery, the pounding and spinning and baking aren't much fun, but the end product can be great!
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